What I can change

So it's taken me some time to realize that I can do lots and lots of things -- things I would never have imagined years ago. I'm tougher in so many ways because of things I've taken on -- and things that have taken me on.

It's taken a lot longer for me to realize that there are plenty of things I can't do anything about, but not to feel paralyzed by fear and regret in the face of that. At the same time, I can always monitor my attitudes and manage them, to the best of my ability.

Which is a long and philosophical way of saying that the camera really is broken. Whatever piece is loose in there sometimes falls into place and sometimes not, but it's out again.

The attitude change part? When I realized that, 20 rows back in on the sock I'd made an extra half-leaf, and would have to rip it back, I found myself saying, "Oh, well, then I'll have all the fun of knitting it again!"